Why the Coffee Beanery closing has screwed up my life:

Today was the first monday that I normally would've been at work for 8.5 hours but instead was not doing anything. It's really quite a strange phenomenon that's happening in my life. I haven't been unemployed in 4 years; I haven't had just one job in 3 years, so just having one job that I work there roughly once a month is just mind bogglingly(?) awful.
I was generally happy the past few weeks over the beanery's end. I was mad at how stupid everything had gotten, and I was sick of being around the people all the time. I needed a break from teenage partiers and general idiots, I needed a break from the world's more unorganized boss, I needed a break from having to be around Fred's lovey dovey 'emily is so pretty even though she was my second choice of the orgin girls' self all the time. I was glad that it was finally done. That it wouldn't just be a cover up for why everything looked like crap all the time, and why I was always out of everything anyone ever wanted. I was sick of people blaming me for not having sinful sundae in stock (and threatening to "tell dave on me", wtf was he going to do? seriously? It was all his fault.) The end seemed like such a great thing. Until now it's happened.
I don't want the beanery, per say, back. I just want my consistancy back. My job there affected my life in such certain, little, particular, crucial ways; I don't know why I didn't think about it before, but it's totally screwed up my life. I'll give you two rock hard examples of why:

Example 1)
Today my iPod ran out of charge. This never, I repeat NEVER happens. I'm pretty sure my iPod has died ONE time in the nearly a year I've owned him. Robert (my iPod,) always has battery charge; the only time he died was because something weird happened and maybe it got turned on in my car or something all night, or wasn't on lock in my purse, and then decided it needed to reformat. This was only about a month ago. And it's not like I have any means other than my computer to charge him, my dock only plays it won't charge if it's playing.
Why did Robert always have charge? Because, three days a week he was sitting on a charger for 9 hours at a time. When I was at work. Robert ran out of battery today, because he hasn't been on that charger.

Example 2)
I have no money. Now, this is not because of paychecks; I still have a beanery paycheck coming, and it's only about three days later than normal (if we got them on Friday, when they were dated, but that didn't matter because we never got them at a consistant time anyway.)
It's tips. I don't have any tips!
I don't know about any of my coworkers, but I made about 25 dollars a day on tips, at least on Mondays and Wednesday. And I usually made around 20 on Fridays, sometimes more like 30 bucks or more depending on if anyone else was working.
This is also because I've gone to starbucks like three times in the past week, and my lack of spendin' change (tips) and free coffee (beanery) I've spent like 10 bucks on coffee!
(Note: I'm aware I don't have to get coffee out places, I know, but old habits die hard.)

The Beanery's death is ruining my life.
And I have no job. That counts.
I don't want to go and learn new things. I just want to read books and listen to Belle and Sebastian and make weird made up drinks in the blender all day.



I miss my job.





I even miss Jimmy Brady.